I committed to my job.
As long as I decide to do what I now do I will never be able to balance it with a marriage.
Simple as that.
Agreed - it is just a part of the sacrifice we face as service members. HOWEVER, and I do not mean this to challenge your position at all (I couldn't salvage my marriage and keep my commitment to the Army, so this is NOT a challenge, merely a point to open a discussion) ...
Can we really continue to demand so much from our service members while denying them so much more?
Put another way, just because I will not allow this to turn confrontational through a medium of misunderstanding:
You're a soldier (Airman, Marine, etc) - shouldn't you have the right to the happiness you fight for civilians to have? Yes, our job demands we give up more than we'll ever receive, but to just dismiss the cause as "part of the job" isn't helping our troops. How can a society, be that a social circle of volunteers or their oversight, demand that a position in defending this country and her principals and ideals mold our soldiers into a frame of mind that includes that they will never be happy doing anything other than making others free and happy?
You and I and so many others here on this board... We are hard men. But that shouldn't deny us any semblance of happiness such as a wife, a family, a nice home, etc. The sacrifice must have a line drawn where the military simply admits that there is such a thing as asking too much. The refusal to accept this is why we're losing good, quality volunteers.
I've been a civilian (barf) for 15 years now. I was divorced 15 months ago. My ex (she's my second) still tells me that I am "military before all else" and it got me to thinking big time: Why are we destined to not have any true happiness? A couple months ago I met this lovely young lady, and spending time with her has been so incredibly awesome that I can't even imagine the hurt that would accompany losing her. I still adore the military, I still want back in, but at the cost of a Saturday cuddled up on the couch with Sabrina? Is that really fair?
I'm not in love with her, but I certainly hesitate when I consider that I may never not be. That is, I cannot imagine losing her over a sense of duty. I should be allowed both! We have ALL earned that right, my brother. All of us, combat vets or not, USA or not, deserve to have some part of our life reflected in a lifelong mate and family - our support system.
I'll still go back because that is what I want to do and I'll never be happy if I am TOO worried about her and not at all worried about what I want to do. But I also have the right--WE have the right--to love and be loved and not spend 2 years in a row knocking sand from our socks (Olive Drab, Army issue, 1 pr EA) and TA-50 in a manner that makes us lose everything we love so much we'd fight to the end for it.
What's the point in serving if we're not even allowed the love we fight for?
That's what these officers are saying - while I don't agree with everything they say, they do have a point, and we do have a right to at least have a family while we do our jobs.
My very humble and unrequested .02 as ex-Infantry and wondering if it is ever possible to balance both.
Be safe, my brother. I am praying for you.