Navygf89
Active member
Well we've been together a year and nine months so far. He went in July 11 and to this day I haven't seen him once. He didn't get a graduation because he didn't pass his PFA in time. And still his family won't drive three hours up and back to bring him home for the weekend because of the financial expenses. I settled for a proposal over the phone October 10th on the agreement he'll do it again in person. I changed my mind about a ring because I don't want to risk it getting lost in the mail, ecspecially as I haven't recieved half the letters he sent me while he was in Basic training. He'll be going down to Pensicola FL as he's an ATO on the 20th of this month.
I knew before he left I'm not made for all this waiting. If I could've just seen him once so far I won't be so bad. I hope he can come home for christmas but I already doubt he'll be able to, I feel he's holding back information and just leading me on by the way he's acting.
I really can't stand all this waiting, to make things worse my need of alot of support is only making his situation worse which I do know is the last thing he needs to focus on. I mean he's not even in his actual A school right? I've tried to break things off for his good but he wants to stay together despite me stressing him out.
And now I'm hearing because of his job he'll be shipped out for a year every three years from my NJROTC Senior Naval Science instructor. And he's hearing it'll only be like ninth months every five years so I don't know what to believe. I want to be with him forever and I know I can manage once we get through all this bull and I can actually be with him in person because he's only ever just an image or a voice which I hate also because it's like he's not real, like he has no substance.
I guess I'm just trying to reach out for some hope and motivation to get me to that point because when I'm in a good mood and can do things it helps him out in return and keeps him going. Someone please help me so I can be better for him, please!
I knew before he left I'm not made for all this waiting. If I could've just seen him once so far I won't be so bad. I hope he can come home for christmas but I already doubt he'll be able to, I feel he's holding back information and just leading me on by the way he's acting.
I really can't stand all this waiting, to make things worse my need of alot of support is only making his situation worse which I do know is the last thing he needs to focus on. I mean he's not even in his actual A school right? I've tried to break things off for his good but he wants to stay together despite me stressing him out.
And now I'm hearing because of his job he'll be shipped out for a year every three years from my NJROTC Senior Naval Science instructor. And he's hearing it'll only be like ninth months every five years so I don't know what to believe. I want to be with him forever and I know I can manage once we get through all this bull and I can actually be with him in person because he's only ever just an image or a voice which I hate also because it's like he's not real, like he has no substance.
I guess I'm just trying to reach out for some hope and motivation to get me to that point because when I'm in a good mood and can do things it helps him out in return and keeps him going. Someone please help me so I can be better for him, please!