I hate to say this Navy Boy - "You're crazier than a Hooty Owl!". (Not meant as personal attack) I hope that your response was meant to be a "tongue-in-cheek response.
I would hope someone doesn't shoot you in the back (it's happened in combat zones before). Troopers have a major heartache with someone who is so gungho that they don't value the lives of their subordinates. If you are the one in charge, then you
DO NOT spend your troop's lives without a d*mn good reason and always look for alternate tactics before you spend lives like water.
If you want to throw away your own life and commit suicide, I'm quite sure that
YOUR troops would hold back and let you do it.
(I would) (and have).