Hey, chin up there. You know that saying "the grass is always greener on the other side of the fence?" Well it pretty much holds true with everybody, you always think something else will be better than what you have now. It usually doesn't work out that way however. It seems like you have a pretty romanticized idea of the military in your head, you might want to seriously consider talking to some veterans or current military personnel (such as some of the gentlemen you can find here
) before you commit to anything. I've wanted to be in the military all my life, but thankfully my dad made me promise to wait before signing anything until I was 20, I still signed the contract, but I went into it with open eyes, thanks to my Dad's stories about his day-to-day experiences (not just the funny or exciting "war stories") and those of many of my neihbours and friends who joined before I did.
I don't want to put you off the military, but you should really make sure you know what you're getting into, because if you're expecting a war movie experience I'm afraid you're more than likely going to be dissappointed.